I am exhausted.
I do too much, to avoid dealing with old crap that happened to me when I was a kid,
when old crap comes up, I do one of two things:
1) further avoid dealing with my problems by taking on yet another task to accomplish to keep myself even busier
2) collapse under the weight of my self-inflicted responsibilities and old demons, and shut down.
I have recently responded in the latter fashion. I am now frantically trying to put my life back together and resume the ridiculous pace at which I normally operate.
On the bright side, I have been too busy wallowing in misery to spend much time stressing about the applications I am waiting for news on. I'm finding it amusing that I am being offered full scholarships at law schools I didn't even apply to (and some I've barely heard of), but am agonizing over every day of anticipation of the receipt of fat envelopes containing acceptance letters from the law schools I (and the rest of the world) actually want to go to.
I think I'm developing an ulcer, and I'm not even in law school yet.